"Filming" Blog

          Hello, I hope you're having a nice day.

          So Friday night (the 14th) to Saturday afternoon (the 15th) was supposed to be the day we were supposed to film. But sadly, that didn't end up happening. Of course, it was me who couldn't make it to the filming. Also, to be clear, I did not leave him hanging. Anyway, I told him that I couldn't film this weekend for personal reasons, which I'd prefer to keep personal. We've rescheduled the filming to be this weekend, Saturday 22nd the and Sunday the 23rd. I guess I'm looking forward to it, I don't really know. It's not the actual "oh heck someone I barely know is coming to my house" it's that I don't like the idea that someone I barely know has my address which is not a nice thought to have.

          As you can imagine, since I didn't film this weekend I did other things. During the day Friday was an entire train wreck caused by yours truly. The deep depths of my stomach are aching with embarrassment and anxiety just by thinking of it. What did I do you may ask, well I'll tell you. I made the bold decision to come out as Non-Binary to the 12 people in my math class. Why did I do that? I have no clue. I had an opportunity and took it, I guess. We didn't do much Friday night. I played video games on my computer and stayed up until 3 a.m., so the usual I guess. Saturday was kind of different, but not really. I slept until 12 p.m. and woke up to go pick up groceries from Walmart with my mother. It was raining, so we had to get home and put the stuff away quickly so the groceries wouldn't get wet. After that we went to target where we bought earbuds and discount valentines candy. Sunday me, my mother, and my brother went to a pancake party thing my mom's friend was hosting. The funny thing was I never verbally agreed to go to this event. Anyway, while at that small gathering I got to hold an infant and have a very in-depth conversation with my mother about why mothers smell their newborns. I also got to play games with a small child belonging to another one of my mothers friends. My parents worked Monday, so my brothers and I were left to do anything our little hearts desired. Which was absolutely nothing. The only thing productive Thing I did was math homework that I didn't even finish, But was smart enough to start at like 11 a.m. so I could do one problem and then not work on it again for a half an hour. I love that for me. Well, now we're here. It's Tuesday, but I'm not going to publish it today. Take this as my gift from the past.